This is too much. You’ve been on my mind after our break up for 48 days. Yes I’ve been counting..
But I guess its time I stop. I dont want to obsess over you. I’ll try my best not to cry again. I’ll try my best to forget you. But dont worry, I’ll still keep our memories even if it’ll hurt me to just remember them.
I’m sorry for the stupid things I’ve done. Those things that you didnt like. Things that caused you to distance yourself more from me. Things that caused you to ignore me. Its okay. I understand..
I promised to love you forever, I dont think I can keep that anymore.. It’ll just hurt me and crush me. And I have to stop this. Because I’m getting physically affected. Ayoko narin maghabol. Nagmumukha lang akong tanga eh. Ikaw na nga nagsabi na one of the reasons why we’re breaking up is because you dont want me to hurt anymore. That was pretty much stupid. I hope you realize that you’ve made things worse. Imagine, me crying over you for 48 days?? its pathetic.
But I’m trying to fix myself slowly. I’m trying to put the pieces of me back together again. But I could never be the same again cause one piece is missing. Its with you. I hope you see what you’ve done to me. I told you to please please take care of me cause you’re my first, but you didnt. ang sakit lang talaga eh. I’ve been so terribly damaged, sometime I wish I’d die.
But I’d like to think I’m getting better everyday. The only reason why I cry is because di ka na nagpaparamdam. Parang walang nangyari satin. parang di mo na ako kilala. Sana manlang pahalagahan mo yung pagsasama natin. Atleast that. I’m not asking naman for too much eh. Yun lang. Siguro you may be thinking right now, bakit hindi kaya ikaw yung magparamdam? Actually I really do want to, pero di ka nagrereply eh. So eto nanaman ako, nagmumukhang tanga. You keep on rejecting me. And if I try to text you, baka di ka nanaman magrereply, kasi siguro ayaw mo na akong kausap..
If you still value our what we had or maybe just our friendship, please let me know. Please save whatever we have left. I’m only a text away.
I love you from the bottom of my hypothalamusif i never get to heaven then at least i will have known
i had an angel here on earth that I could call my very own
and if this world should end tomorrow, boy this much i know is true
i found my piece of heaven the day that i found you.goodbye.
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6926) I miss you. I miss the way you look at me. I miss the way you kiss me. I miss the way you hold my hands tightly. I miss the way you hug me. I miss the way you call me. I miss the way you brush off my fringe from my face. I miss the way you care for me. I miss everything about you. All these, you will never know.
5256.) You aren’t mine anymore. But for now, I want to let you know that I still belong to you. Whether that changes is up to you. You were stupid to let me go. But if you completely let us drift into something less than what we should be… Well, that is just plain fucking idiotic. And I can’t attach myself to that, or someone willing to be reduced to that so easily. Decide quickly. Because I’m not going to wait around forever.
(Source: thenameismela)
10.26.2010 via: tinrio ::: op: thenameismela ::: Notes
He was a major part of your life; of course you’ll miss him; it’s perfectly normal. It’s like getting a tooth pulled out; after the dentist pulls it, you’re relieved. But how many times do you run your tongue over the spot where it once was ? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it was hurting you, doesn’t mean you don’t notice it. It leaves a gap, and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It’s going to take a while, but it always takes some time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you pain. Pulling the tooth was the right decision, but it’s still going to hurt.
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17207.) I wish you still talked to me. I miss you. All I really want is a ‘Hello’ or a ‘How are you?’. I feel like you’ve forgotten about me. I don’t want that to happen.
(Source: blogsecret)
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